Intentional Writing

The last few weeks seem to have been a bit of a blur that when I finally logged in to check when I last wrote I couldn’t quite believe that it had been over a month. The stats showed me that I had intentionally written 150 posts and then for some reason, on day 151 I stopped writing.

Yesterday I was forced to stop for a day when I found myself on a 24 hour duty at work. With nothing else to do, I was finally still. I was frustrated at my lack of discipline over the past month and I found myself googling for sermons on discipline to find out where I had gone wrong.

A sermon by Joyce Meyer popped up and I sat and listened as she spoke about self-control.

2 Timothy 1 vs 7

“For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.”

There was no condemnation in the words that she spoke. Only an affirmation of the Spirit whom lives inside us. She spoke about how often we are flippant with our wording when we choose to eat a chocolate and blame it on our lack of self control. However the reality of it is that we have a Spirit God who gives us self-discipline, and we do not need to make excuses and we do not need to do  anything in our own strength.

Again came the words I know so well, about the importance of spending time in God’s Word, the importance of spending time in His Presence. My verse for the week is:

Psalm 37 vs 4

“Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

My prayer is that I will be intentional about spending time with Him. Intentional about writing. Intentional about delighting in Him.

And as John said in John 3 vs 30:

“He must become greater; I must become less.”

Posted in Intimacy

A Different Point Of View

We taught our students to map read at 10000ft. Its relatively easy as you can see for miles. We then taught them to map read at 500ft and they could see how clearly the high ground stood out. Yesterday we showed them how to navigate at 50ft, which again comes with it’s own benefits and weaknesses.

Genesis 50 vs 20

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”

God’s perspective and plans for our lives are so different. His intention is always for our good no matter what our limited perspective of a situation may be. 

Posted in God's Will

Seek And You Will Find

We had such a lovely day at the beach yesterday. We drank coffee and hot chocolate before watching the waves and playing in the sand. 

After a few hours my eldest daughter was playing on her own and I sat on a bench watching her play, watching my husband play with our younger daughter, and staring out to see.

After a little while there was a spray quite a way into the ocean and I saw a beautiful whale. It took a little while to see it again and show my husband, and then I continued to watch it make its way steadily further away from the land. 

When I needed to take my daughter to the bathroom a short while later, we rounded the corner to find the beach and restaurant were packed and the car park had filled in the time we had been playing. 

As I returned to my bench I looked for the whale once again, but it was gone. I thought about all the people who had missed seeing the whale even though they were right around the corner. I thought about all the whales I must have missed by not being at the beach all the time.

I likened the water to the Word of God and how many beautiful truths and instructions He longs to give me. I thought about how often I fail to seek His Will by being in the wrong place. Or just how little time I spend reading the Word when there lies so much wisdom and guidance for me in there.

Psalm 119 vs 18

“Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your Law.”

May my eyes be opened that I may see wonderful things in His Law.

Posted in God's Will

Choosing The Good

Romans 8 vs 28

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

Yesterday I read a beautiful quote that was along the lines of this verse. I smiled and sent it to a friend and carried on with my day.

Within the hour the school called to say there was a lice breakout at school and I needed to fetch our oldest daughter. It was a terrible working mom moment as I had to go against my inner values of wanting to complete my assigned tasks with excellence, having to run out of the office whilst shouting apologies to my colleagues.

Once home though, after the hair washing ordeal was behind us and we sat on the couch smelling like tea tree oil, I was able to spend the morning cuddled with my daughter, which​ was better than being at work, by far!

This morning we had to wash hair for the third time before school and work and dropping the eldest at my mom. It wasn’t pleasant. There was no time to even finish my cup of coffee so I packed my coffee in my bag only to arrive here at work and see that in the rushed process it wasn’t closed tightly and has messed over all my things.

I’m expectant of how He will turn this day around for me, choosing to be joyful after a very grumpy start to the day.

I’m thankful to be a mommy. I’m thankful to have a job that let’s me run out of the door. I’m thankful for a mom close enough to look after my baby girl this morning. I’m thankful for the rain. I’m thankful that there was still enough coffee left for one cup. 

This is still the day that the Lord has made, I’m choosing to be joyful and be glad in that.

Posted in Praise

I Called, You Answered

Jeremiah 33 vs 3

“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.”

Yesterday I was reading a book on giving, generosity, hospitality and kindness whilst I was at work. Although things were a bit crazy around me with all the Monday morning meetings and tasks, it was as though inside my heart I was completely still as I recognized that since I have become a mom I have stopped looking for opportunities to give. It is as though I have been running on empty a lot of the time and random acts of kindness towards strangers are far from my mind.

I prayed then in my office for the Lord to open a door. That He would make a way for me to grow in this walk with Him to become kinder, to become more generous, to start to look for ways to help others instead of focusing only on myself.

1 Timothy 6 vs 17-19

 Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share.  In this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life.”

Honestly, although I prayed, I didn’t truly believe in my heart that He would answer me straight away. But His Word promises to answer us when we call, and within an hour of me praying there was a knock at my door.

One of my colleagues is busy with a community project, something that I had not heard she was involved in until yesterday. She apologized for interrupting me, and then explained the cause she was fundraising for and how much money she still needed: R24.

I made a bit of a face to her as I explained my wallet was in the car where I always leave it during work, but opened my drawer to scratch around for loose change just in case. There in one drawer I found R20, and in another I found R4. Although she left a very happy person to be able to go and buy the items to help the poor, I was left sitting there in amazement, that a simple prayer for God to open doors for me to help others could be answered so quickly.

As I sit having my quiet time this morning I am reminded once again of Psalm 5 vs 3:

“In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.”wer

As I pray for the day ahead it is a prayer filled with expectation that the Lord will answer when I pray according to His Word.

Posted in God's Will, Prayer

Let Them Open The Door

Yesterday morning before church we decided to take the girls down to the beach to have a little ride on their tricycle and push bike. The morning was crystal clear and not quite as cold as the past few months. My husband took our younger daughter to the bathroom, as I stood next to my oldest daughter and watched her climb confidently on her little tricycle.

Soon she gained speed and in my church boots and jacket I was forced to adopt a rather unladylike sprint in order to remain at her side and ensure that she neither fell into the water nor headed towards the parking lot. It was quite an exhilarating morning filled with riding and running, and eventually the four of us stood throwing small rocks into the crashing waves.

As I stood watching my little girl I was amazed again at the way there seems to be so little baby left in her, and how over the past three and a half years she has simply grown up into her little own person. I thought back on the initial weeks where she was in my arms, and all the hours we spent pushing her in her pram as the months went passed.

To have her riding her own tricycle means that she is now in control of where she is going, to a certain degree. The older she gets the more free will she will have.

I suddenly pictured myself riding my own tricycle through this life with a smile on my face and my hair blowing in the wind, and then clear as day, I could imagine how God my Father is running alongside me in the exact same manner I was doing to protect my daughter. I may think that I am in complete control of this day ahead, but He is there alongside me, His Presence never failing.

Revelation 3 vs 20

“Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.”

My prayer for my daughters today, is that as they grow older and experience the free will that they have to make decisions and think for themselves, that they will consistently be listening for His Voice, and that they will open the door.

Posted in God's Will, Prayer

Search Me

Psalm 139 vs 23-24 

Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.”

As I come before the Lord this morning with a list of prayer requests, I get to the part where I pray for my walk with Him. I pray that He will show me His will for me and that I will be open to correction and areas where I can change.

I pray that He will highlight areas that I am worrying about instead of praying about and that these anxious thoughts will become smaller the more I meditate on what a great God we serve. 

I’m so thankful that leaving the house this morning, my daughters were singing, “Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so”, and that that is the song playing in my head for the day and the basic foundation of my faith.

Posted in Prayer